Let's talk private...

Men are fascinating creatures.  I've been trying to 'figure' them out, or at least do my best at understanding their mentality for years.  I'm aware that I will never be absolute with that accomplishment since I am never going to be one myself, but I like to pat myself on the back for being pretty damn insightful regardless.  I slowly built close friendships with the opposite sex as a young teen, and thankfully blossomed into a tell-it-like-it-is smart ass by the time my high school diploma was in grasp.  Now, I am sure to relate to any gentlemen I meet my honesty policy; I'm going to tell you the truth whether you like it or not, because if any woman is going to be truthful about what you're doing is wrong/stupid/etc, it's going to be me.  Life is too damn short to let things slide that shouldn't.  Don't confuse me with being a Manhater, I've been called that more times than I can count.  Even one of my greatest, longtime friends Caleb referred to me as a bitch when he first met me.  My sharp tongue can get under the nerves easier than most, I get it.  But if I hated men like some assume, I wouldn't bother dating, sleeping, or making friends with any of 'em.

Duh.

I write about the behaviors of men I encounter that is completely unacceptable, not the man himself, there is a difference.  I am up front about what I write for a living, and it is solely the guys' choice to continue seeing me or not.  All he has to do is not do any act deemed asshole worthy that I would bring to others attention/warn other women about, and he'll be solid.  Surprisingly to the majority I've warned, they still haven't grasped the concept and act out as tools anyway.  Not my fault.  I am free to write and speak the truth as I mull through my dating journey to find my lobster (old F.R.I.E.N.D.S. refference here).

With that set in place, being around testosterone enough as I have, it has been easy to pick up on mans' greatest topic of joy that duplicates as his biggest insecurity; his penis.  A guy simply can't tell one  joke and let it lie, he's got to build a vocabulary world around his dick, and usually just to compete with other males around him for best junk of all.  It's amusing to me that they seem to have this idea that a woman will care as much as they do.  Yoko Ono once said, "I wonder why men get serious at all.  They have this delicate, long thing hanging outside their bodies which goes up and down by its own will.  If I were a man I would always be laughing at myself." Not to be the killjoy of every mans' hopes and dreams here, but Yoko had a point.  Why bring attention to something out of your physical control?  Women do not see your package the way you do at all.  In order to shed some light on the subject, I'm going to address the key points that men seem to continue getting wrong or have confused beliefs in....


The Look and Size


You're all so sure that a woman wants her man to be packing a third leg in order to be satisfied.  Um, no. Statistics have shown that the erect penis size of most men — 68 percent — is between 4.6 and 6 inches long. About 16 percent of men have an erect penis size longer than 6.1 inches, and of those only 2.5 percent are over 6.9 inches. The rest of the group are the shorties that every man fears being part of.  So rest assured, all of you guys who insist that you're bigger than your counterpart, the odds are against you, and women already know that.  It's not even an appealing part of the body to look at.  Sorry, but that's the truth, even if you're wrestling with anaconda stature down there, we don't see your offering as an attractive piece at all.  We enjoy what it feels like, and that's only if you know how to work with what you've got.  Length to regular standards is just fine, girth can really be helpful if you come up short in that arena, and too little/too big are gravely disappointing.  How can too big be disappointing?  A woman doesn't want to feel like her insides are getting pummeled fight club style every time you get busy, and she sure as hell doesn't want to endure the uncomfortable gag/choking reflex when oral sex comes into play, which brings me to point number two....


Fellatio Boundaries

What happens when a guy spends countless hours over the years watching smutty porn as example of what to expect in the real world?  He will bring it to the bedroom and cause quite the humorous commotion with the lady in question.  Girls in porn are acting, everyone knows that, but in order for men to get off from it, they convince themselves that she means every moan and groan, and the way oral is portrayed is how all women do it.  The idea is so laughable that I can't stand it!  Remember what I said about your staff not being pretty?  Privates on both sexes are not eye candy, so the eagerness to get our mouths all over it that the C class of Hollywood wants you to believe is a joke.  Like I explained to one of my guy friends the other day who I had penis conversation with that inspired this post, a woman can truly enjoy satisfying her mans' member with her mouth, but only if the love she has for him is real.  There are women who will fake it like Jenna Jameson because they think they have to in order to win over a new guy, and there are women who simply won't go there for personal hygienic reasons.  Life is a crap shoot when it comes to sexual compatibility.  You can't ever expect it's alright to unleash your tonsil tickler in a forceful face-fuck manner either without discussing your desire to first.  That's a move way too many men make the mistake of doing.  Just like....

Backdoor Surprise

The taboo talk of anal sex is bound to be addressed in most relationships.  Every man has heard the positives of it being a tighter destination for his meat to travel (which is true, because it's mainly used as an exit and rarely sees entry, duh), and most will sweet talk/convince/plea with their woman to allow them to try it at least once.  Women who have yet to cross into that realm have thought about it as well....just like the women who find it just as enjoyable as vaginal penetration, and the women who find it to be one of the most disgusting and painful experiences they have ever endured.  Just like with the rules of fellatio, there are stipulations when it comes to dancing the chocolate cha cha.  You can never just 'slip it in by accident' (why men think this lame fake excuse will always fly is beyond me), there must always be a great deal of lubrication (not spit, Vaseline, or whatever crazy sub you have on hand because you're that desperate to get it), and you've got to take it slow.  My counter to being asked for taking part in this act has often been, "I will accept, as long as you take it to".  Maybe it's a cheap shot since most men want to give and not receive in this arena, but one guy did oblige, so you try and tell me that it's not a big deal.  It can be pleasurable, or it can be a hot, uncomfortable mess.  It all comes down to who you're partaking in the act with.


Cell Phone/Online Penis Spreads


Who was the woman to first receive a mans' dick via text or online messaging and told them it was scrumptious?  Why do men think that taking the time to lose the pants and give their ween its' own photo shoot in the best lighting (you hope) will have the ladies come running like dogs in heat?  Do you know the vulnerable state you put yourselves in by making such a ridiculous choice?  You run the risk of her not only laughing at the media received, it also give her the ability to forward Mr. Winky to anyone on her phones contact list, or on the internet to be a permanent addition to a Penis Fail forum.  Yes, men love a woman who will dish out a topless picture for their own personal viewing.  Boobies are fun.  Why a guy will think we want the favor returned with a dickshot is confusing at best.  I have never been in favor of this presumptuous act, and I am positive in saying that most, if not all women agree with me on this one.  It's pervy and unnecessary at best.  If you want to keep your dignity in check, refrain from making the dreaded decision of sharing your wanker with the world.  All it takes is one woman appalled or scorned, and you're screwed.


There may be  more on the subject I have missed out on, but these few I've shared are key.  Hopefully this clears up any confusion or ideals you've had on the matter and can finally have a little bit of clarity.  If there's anything that I didn't touch on the subject, I'm more than happy to add my two cents ;] - SC. & J.

Letter from Baby !

Hi
Mommy. ...I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks
old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me
tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got beautiful
brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I will when
... I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me your one
and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each
other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor
when I grow up. You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so
excited, you couldn't wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day
was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy.

It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best
thing I see in my life. I know it already. ... ... ... ... ... Today was
the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! ...He
wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that you
noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock,
and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand yet. You were
still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary,
Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying
up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad for you. You were
crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It doesn't make me feel
good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you
again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I do. It wasn't
right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I don't like it,
Mommy. Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and
you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes,
and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most
beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm
happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait
and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will
make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart. I can move my
hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your
belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.
Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting
funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't
know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry,
Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to
protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good
person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want us.
He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy? You didn't talk to
me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay? It's been three days since you
saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or touched me or anything since
that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel
sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind
of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel
safe and warm again. Why don't you do that when you're awake, any more?
I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going
somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a
hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell
you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait. ...Mommy, I'm
getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't know what you
are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something's going to
happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me
you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you! Mommy, what are
they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad!
Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop! Don't worry Mommy,
I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did,
and they said it's called an abortion. Why, Mommy? Why did you do it?
Don't you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I'm really,
really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy!
I love you with all of my heart. Why don't you love me? What did I do
to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It
really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me.
Didn't I love you enough? Please say you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to
live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a
doctor. I don't want to be here, I want you to love me again! I'm really
really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you! I love you,
Mommy. Every abortion is just… One more heart that was stopped. Two more
eyes that will never see. Two more hands that will never touch. Two
more legs that will never run. One more mouth that will never speak Stop
Abortion Now. :/

Under Pressure !

So,
I have no idea what goes on with the local Housing here on Post
All I do know that they set out to clean all houses in the Community.
Well, that is all good, so far,
yet I've found that after their week-long Cleaning Spree the Area around my House looks somewhat more beat up than it was before.
Without letting me know I've had my Freezer moved, aswell as all the Shelves and little Storage Dressers got emptied out and and the Inside just left standing there, my Bakers Rack got also emtied out and ' left for dead ' and the Mosaic Table got removed to the other side of the Porch. Everywhere are white Paint chips - also at the Main Entrance - which is all pretty much har to scrub off the Floors / Wood.

My Windows are all splatted now, as in Water Splats all over, the Frontdoor got greenish slime on it and the leftover cut Grass from the "Lawn Care Crew" Days before sticks along the Stairway, Screendoor and Brickwall.
Anyways, I've called Housing to find what was up with that
and the nice Lady just told me that : ' Yeah, of course Ma'am, YOU can clean it back up and move it back where it was. No Problem. Have a nice Day ! ' 
Really now Housing Crew, what kind of *Sh8* are you smoking ?? My Blood is boiling !! I've had a perfectly CLEAN Porch until you guys came along and messed it all up !!

Ever heard the Phrase " Leave a Place the Way you've found it ! " !!!!??

Oh Gemini !!

Birth Chart This birth chart shows the positions of the planets The planets in the signs The position of the planets in the signs of the Zodiac has an influence on the character of the individual and these influences form a large part of the individual psyche. Sun in Gemini She is an opportunist. She can express herself easily and learns quickly. She is welcoming and gentle. She likes travel and intellectual work. Weaknesses: a changeable and diffuse nature. Wastes energy by doing too many things. She lacks persistence in achieving set goals. Moon in Capricorn Fearful, taciturn, reserved. Attracted to politics. Has few friends because of reserved nature. Success comes by means of other people, who recognize her qualities. Weaknesses: material worries, savings, restrictions. Does not get carried away by love. Mercury in Gemini Quick and alert mind. Suited to lengthy research. Likes changes and travel, she is always on the search for novelty. Likes movement and commotion. Facility with the spoken word. She likes writing. Weaknesses: excitable in the extreme, mental strain. Venus in Taurus Amiability and fidelity. Likes to please and dress up. Earns a good living. She is generous but not extravagant. Affectionate, sensual and loving in nature, she likes the good things of Life, sensitive to beauty, melodious sounds, perfumes. Love arrives slowly, without passion but with force. Love is lasting. Weaknesses: indolence, laziness, immoderate taste for pleasures of Life, gambling, entertainment and luxury. Mars in Libra Aggression is quite simply repressed. She stores up the setbacks without letting it show, but too much can be difficult to support. Appreciates the Arts, beauty. Weaknesses: she is quick to criticize the society in which she lives. She likes to please and plays on the affection of others. Jupiter in Scorpio She is provocative, brusque, offensive. Very pretentious and opinionated, with lots of authority and ambition. Possibility of a large family. Weaknesses: immoderate sensual appetite. Pretension, disdain, insolence. Saturn in Libra Recognized for her seriousness, moral qualities. She is respectable, conscientious. Weaknesses: not open to new ideas. Uranus in Sagittarius She is shy, delicate but proud, bold and lively. Neptune in Sagittarius Likes long voyages, things foreign, water. Pluto in Libra Brings changes. Sign and ascendant Gemini ascendant Cancer The planets in the houses The planetary positions in the houses express the facts relative to destiny. Sun in XI Successful career thanks to support of patrons, friends or relations. Knows how to choose her circle. Moon in VI Will never be a leader, but succeeds in being the right-hand of an important person. In most cases, she is an employee, worker etc. She likes the country, respects Nature and likes animals. Mercury in XI She has lots of friends. She likes intelligent, cultivated people which whom she can have verbal battles: she likes debates, interminable discussions. She likes to be friends with younger people: friends come and go. Venus in X Her best years are in the parental home and also the last years of life. That said, the rest are not unhappy, but contain certain hurdles. Love can help in professional life, she has a gift for seduction. She likes to entertain: she likes comfort and the attractions of home-life. Mars in III Lively spirit, alert and ingenious but sarcastic, critical, provocative. She is quarrelsome. Expresses herself easily, does what she wants: success is at the end of the road. She is capable and acts quickly. Jupiter in IV She likes and believes in justice. She is an optimist and is generous. Professional success is rapid and helped by the family. Family life is very important for her. She likes comfort, well-being at home. She knows how to entertain in style and above all with pleasure: her house is always open to friends. Saturn in IV She needs to be dominated. She has a sense of organization and accepts her responsibilities. She achieves her objectives in spite of slow progress, with many hurdles to overcome. She is persevering and patient. Uranus in V She is independent, likes even dubious distractions. Her amorous adventures are not only numerous but also very complicated, otherwise they hold no charm. Neptune in VI She is more prone than most to the bad influence of alcohol, medicines and drugs. To be avoided at all costs. The houses in the signs Ascendant in Cancer She will certainly have a large family. Indeed, family life, the home, the children will be very important for her. House II in Leo Financial success will be very easy thanks to the support of influential people. Tendency to spend more than what is earned. House III in Virgo She pulls everything to pieces, analyzes, critizes. Doesn't take on anything without examining the pro's and the con's. She is very careful, sometimes to a manic extent, taking everything into account even to the slightest detail. House IV in Libra The simple life, the small home isn't for her. If the job doesn't pay well or she doesn't marry well financially speaking, she will probably be unhappy. Likes luxury goods to make life comfortable, going out, cocktail parties. Goes round only with refined people, perhaps sometimes a little too affected, and with good jobs. House V in Scorpio Gets blinded by and drunk with love: everything revolves around her love. Her passions are angry, exclusive and domestic quarrels are in prospect as a result. Fertile love life. House VI in Sagittarius Likes jobs that involve travel, moving about a lot. Weak point: the circulation of the blood. House VII in Capricorn A love-and-friendship marriage. Unproblematic, quiet relationship. A few hiccups, but nothing really serious. Faithfulness. House VIII in Aquarius An unexpected inheritance. House IX in Pisces Likes sea cruises. Sometimes has brilliant ideas that come from nowhere. House X in Aries All the leadership qualities are there: authority, energy, initiative, leadership, lots of gung-ho and of course intelligence. House XI in Taurus Likes to be surrounded by frank and good-hearted friends. These friendships don't stand on ceremony. Carries out everything she undertakes surely, composedly, calmly until successful. House XII in Gemini Anxiety, preoccupation concerning a dear one. Interplanetary aspects The interplanetary aspects have a strong influence on the character and disposition of the individual and, consequently, on her destiny. The conjunction aspect is variable and depends above all on the nature of the conjoint planets. -133 Opposition Mercury - Uranus She likes polemic, to criticize and, above all, to contradict. She lacks diplomacy and tends to dissipate her energy. She cannot stay in the same place, likes change even if it means a backward step in her professional career. 118 Trine Sun - Saturn She likes to work alone, quietly. She pays attention to detail, is serious, methodical, patient and can take on long, difficult and delicate tasks, and complete them. 105 Trine Mercury - Mars She likes to discuss, likes polemic. She has good judgement and is determined. She is a worker and has lots of energy. She has a lively intelligence and goes to the heart of things. 81 Conjunction Jupiter - Pluto She likes to direct, is intelligent and is an organizer of the first order. -68 Opposition Moon - Ascendant She is unhappily influenced by the family. She is probably loved insufficiently by her parents, but looks for more love especially from her mother. She is susceptible, has superficial sensitivity and is sometimes irascible. -57 Opposition Saturn - Midheaven She must struggle a lot and work hard to achieve her aims. Although confronted by discouraging circumstances, she knows how to set off again and continue the fight. -41 Square Moon - Saturn She has changeable moods, a reserved character, is stubborn and lacks assurance. Her relationship with her mother is disturbing and difficult, she has considerable family problems. This is the standard aspect for children who are abandoned or lack maternal love. -40 Opposition Sun - Neptune Her imagination turns to internal day-dreaming: she is easily influenced, and complicates life unnecessarily. She does not bring plans to a conclusion. The dream-world is enough. 36 Sextile Neptune - Pluto 33 Conjunction Saturn - Pluto She perseveres, achieves her projects through hard work. 30 Sextile Mars - Uranus She possesses exceptional energy. She is impulsive but bold. She takes on risky enterprises for the good of the community, with all the energy she possesses. She has a great need of her independence, likes her freedom of action. 28 Trine Sun - Pluto She is aware of the goal to be achieved. She is strong, and always picks herself up after a setback. -24 Opposition Mars - Midheaven She suffers professional setbacks because she is too impulsive, imprudent and lacks forethought. -14 Square Moon - Pluto She has problems in love. She is jealous, her self-esteem is often quickly held up to ridicule. -9 Square Pluto - Ascendant She imposes her will by force, violence. If you'd like to get a clearer and easier to understand birth chart, then please use the Merlin Natal Report. You can also get additional information through this interactive feature: today's transits (horoscope for today) astrology previsions (14 days) compatibility with your partner Aspects Planet Aspect Planet Orb/Value Sun Trine Saturn 2.48 118 Sun Opposition Neptune 7.31 -40 Sun Trine Pluto 5.56 28 Moon Square Saturn 3.55 -41 Moon Square Pluto 4.49 -14 Moon Opposition Ascendant 4.10 -68 Mercury Trine Mars 2.19 105 Mercury Opposition Uranus 5.22 -133 Mars Sextile Uranus 3.04 30 Mars Opposition Midheaven 6.27 -24 Jupiter Conjunction Pluto 6.38 81 Saturn Conjunction Pluto 8.44 33 Saturn Opposition Midheaven 4.07 -57 Neptune Sextile Pluto 1.35 36 Pluto Square Ascendant 0.39 -9   431 -386 45 Sign types & asteroids Signs masculine 7   Signs of fire 2 Signs feminine 3   Signs of earth 2 Signs cardinals 4   Signs of air 5 Signs fixed 2   Signs of water 1 Signs mutable 4       Chiron Taurus 24.49 Ceres Scorpio 14.50 R Pallas Libra 3.12 Juno Capricorn 6.53 R Vesta Aquarius 27.00 Fortune Aquarius 24.46 South node Capricorn 13.31 If you'd like to get a clearer and easier to understand birth chart, then please use the Merlin Natal Report. your birth chart graphic (click to enlarge) Click on a planet for more information

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Detox the Soul

There is a lot of talk today about the need to detox the physical body. But what about the soul? Our soul drives us and moves us forward. It shows us our path. If we are carrying baggage within our soul, we are not completely free to carry out our mission.

Ironically, part of that mission is to release the toxic issues that hold us back. So until we discover the toxins within our soul, we are lead in a mindless circle. Repeating habits and creating programming that hold us back.

Our soul carries the memories of every life we have experienced. When these experiences are negative and not properly healed, they cling to us, awaiting release.


Many individuals experience fears/phobias and have no idea where they originated from. No event in their present life has occurred to bring on this phobia, but it exists none-the-less.

It's been my experience (personal and study) that some of these fears/phobias stem from unresolved past-life issues. To detox the soul, these issues need to be addressed, healed and released.

Detoxing the soul takes serious, honest soul searching. We have to be emotionally and spiritually ready to battle these inner demons. The first step is acknowledgement. If we're in constant denial of an issue, we're not ready to deal with it. If this is the case, forward movement is prevented and an opportunity will have to come at a later date.


This is how we repeat patterns and repeated patterns are a good indicator of a denial issue. The acknowledgement of our soul's shadow(s) is the most important step. From there, we move on to healing the issue.

Healing the issue is where the emotional pain becomes fierce. It's easier to side-step the issue, pretending it's not there. We have to dig deep, probing the inner depths of our psyche to discover why the issue is there to begin with.

The fear/phobia itself holds many clues as to why it's presenting itself. We have to be willing to see it for what it is and understand this fear/phobia is in the past. Fear is something we learn from experience or it's taught to us by another, but it's our responsibility to overcome it.


Meditation and soul searching exercises can assist in overcoming past issues. It's the responsibility of each individual to find what works for them and apply it.

After you have worked through the healing process, it's time to release the issue once and for all. The most difficult part of releasing is not falling back into old programming.

Our emotions need to hold on to whatever comfort zone issues have been created. This includes the toxic ones. Releasing them means we have to move into unknown territory. So it seems logical that if you have acknowledged and healed an issue, releasing would come easy, but your mind will make a final attempt to hold on to that comfort zone.


Continue to tell yourself you are alright and there is nothing to fear by releasing this and moving forward. It's our responsibility to find the courage to face these inner shadows and heal them.

Detoxing the soul is a process. A process that takes time and patience. It involves acknowledgement, healing and releasing the issues we'd rather keep buried. But we'll never be free of these issues if we keep them locked inside, buried under an avalanche of emotion.

Shadow work has never been more important. The lifting of the veils over our world brings almost instant manifestation of our thoughts. If we continue to live in the shadows of our past, we will never be free. We get what we ask for...even when we don't believe we are asking for it.

On Friendship.

This blog was inspired by a fellow Blogger.

I recently came across her Write about Real Friends, it made me think.
Friends are supposed to be there whenever you need them, they see you how you really are and tell you the truth. But, how do you know who if your Friends is a REAL one ?

I never had too many Problems to connect with People, but being in the Military really makes it so much harder. I've learnt my Lessons about Army Wifes - and I don't mean the kind you might see on TV. The words " Crazy " and " Backstabbing " come to Mind. When I first moved here I thought I'd make a lot of Friends rather quickly, instead, after 3 years I'm still doing everything solo.
Within the Time on this Post I've been the " flavor of the Month ",  a " Gold Donkey " and a " Cover-up ".
So, how do you choose a Friend if you need to have your Guard up at almost all times ?
I've also learnt that some Women don't stop even for kids and want to pull your Child right into whatever Argument they got with you. And that is where it hits the Brakes for me : If someone decides to spread Rumors about my Kids or twists Stories so their personal Attention Level rises a few Bars ! - That's just plain dirty and beyond mean!!

Truth be told, I have withdrawn myself a lot. It's sad, and I never thought that something like this could ever happen to me...but yah, I won't deny it.
I miss my former Bestie and it is wonderful to finally be connected again!! Thinking back on how much fun we had back in them days, before we were married and had Kids, makes me smile every time. Now, she also has found a new best Friend, which is kinda hurtful to see, but I wish her all the Luck in the world ! Afterall I can't expect her to wait for me to MAYBE come back home. Another good Friend of mine committed Suicide a few Months before I moved to the USA, which struck me very deeply because we were Besties since we were Babies.

The last Friends I thought I've found here in WA turned out to be -1- a little Cheat. She went to Places just to meet up with a Fling, and I covered in case her Hubby asked. Number 2 was someone who didn't really like paying for Things out of her own Pocket. - She was a Friend I really couldn't afford ( nor do I have the letters ' ATM ' tattooed onto my Forehead ).
I've joined an active Group , too. Only to see people smile in my Face and talk behind my Back. Surely, I do have my Flaws, but shouldn't that be something a true Friend is supposed to tell me ?

- Hold up, I remember, I'm a lone Wolf here. But believe me, howling at the Moon without a Pack can be very depressing at times.

No good Deed ...

...gets left unpunished.
Today actually started out to be a slow one, went to the Thriftstore and consigned Items, picked up my Check and thought I'd head to the Bank because that's where the Money goes. Anyways, I did change my Mind once I saw the Line. So I got back into the Car and drove home. Like I've said, a normal dull day.

A bit along on the Interstate I saw a Woman in a long Coat walking along the Shoulder lane, leaving her Car behind. She had quite a Distance to walk still, so I pulled over and waited.
The Lady got into my Car and explained that she'd like to stop at the next Gas station. She was a bit upset about her broken down Car and thankful that I've had stopped.

2 Minutes into the Drive I've heard a loud Pop to my Car, I've checked but saw nothing. The little Lady then said that I've must have hit a big Rock along the side, nothing special. Yes, nothing special !

So I dropped her off at the Station and continued on my way home.

Back on the Interstate, there, I've heard a loud ' Ka-Dong ' , and I knew, right then, that I had a flat one - Tire, that is! While I tried to make my way home save and sound I've had a gazillion Cars passing me by, with people in them pointing and yelling. ... And I just thought to myself that the Universe really knows when to screw you , apparently right after you've done YOUR own good Deed for the day !!
I've made it to the Front Gate...

But what if I couldn't reach A. ? I had to pick up the Kids from School in a few Minutes, so I called his Cell.
A. was at a Fair on Fort Lewis, there was no way of knowing if he'd even hear his Phone ring. Should I walk to School ? Get towed ? Who else could I call, who could help me ? I tried. He picked up. Thank you, phew. After a short Explanation of why and what had happened I waited ... what else could I have done really?!!

I stood leaning against my Car and watched people pass by. I've seen them look at the Damage and I've heard a lot of BS- remarks, YES, I know that a flat Tire isn't a nice thing to have ... DUUUH !!
I've waited like a Dog tied to a Pole, until a Couple came by, stopped and looked closer and ... HOLD YOUR BREATH NOW... asked if I needed help!
He's a Mechanic, oh boy, I was in Luck !! He got out my Spare and refilled the Air in it just in Time for A.
to get down and dirty in his Slacks to change a Tire... Yay !!

So thank you strange Couple from the Visitors Center for not just walking by with a Grin. And thank you A. for getting your beige Slacks all covered in Dirt just to get me Home.

And to you, Universe, thanks for this unfair Punishment... I'll remember it next Time !

STEAM OFF !!!

So yah, here I am again.
Should I complain about this or not, hmm, maybe I should:

To be honest , I am outraged about A's plans to go to the Movie Theater on Saturday.
I mean, normally there's nothing wrong with this, just not THIS Saturday!!
Reason is, THIS UPCOMING WEEKEND, on SATURDAY, is our 12th Year Anniversary.
So, what A. did was that he went to the PX yesterday Morning and stood in Line to get Free Tickets to a Free Viewing of the Movie  " Thor " at Carey Theater.
Like I've said, normally I'd be all for it..
but at April 30th I had something more, something romantic in Mind.
Like Roses and a romantic Dinner at the Space Needle Restaurant, just the two of us.
Naaaah, he came Home from work telling me that he got the Tickets and that it would be a good and fun Anniversary.  FUN ? - I want romantic. Now say it with me: Ro -man-tic ! Yes, that's right.
But ey, hold up, I didn't really want this "good Anniversary - Thing".
And what kind of a Husband does that ??!
So of course I was as mad as a Hellhound yesterday ( and still am really )
so I had to take a Drive just to steam off...
Now, I tell you, ya'll were lucky not to have been in that Car with me !!
I was cursing up a Storm and could have punched a Hole into the Wall, not caring about the Bricks.
My solution to this now will be that I'll simply treat myself to something nice!

Or what would you do...
if YOU were in my shoes ?

TTFN .

Along came Julia

Though my Childhood was carefree
and I look back on so many cherished Memories,
one Thing that always had brought me much Trouble, mostly with myself, was my red hair.
As a Fact, I've hated my Haircolor for many years, throughout my whole Schooltime.

Eventhough there were many beloved Story Characters who styled a ' Carrot Top ', it was not meant to connect with me. Pippi Longstocking, the superstrong girl who fought Pirates and lived in a big House all by herself, the Pumuckl was a redhaired Cartoon Elf from an 80's childrens TV-Show who lived with an elderly Carpenter, the red Zora was a flame - haired Gypsy girl who was the Leader of a Gang of Boys ...ect.
All these Shows were watched, but nothing really touched me in a Sense that I could identify myself with it.
Being a Redhead was difficult, challenging at at some points even hurtful.
As a Child I've heard many Nicknames, from Spaghetti over Copperhead and Duracel to... well, the not so 'nice' ones. As I grew older and began to have a more sense of Fashion for myself  I had to hit another Brickwall.  - A 13-year old redhaired Girl and NEON Colors just don't mix too well !!  Neon Pink, Green, Yellow and Orange were IN and little me with my 'Natural Colors' was way OUT. Which Teenage girl in the early 90's liked Brown, Beige, Olive, ect... . Well, I did not !!
Anyways, as a Teenager with red Hair I was never too high on Selfesteem, more the Opposite was the case.
And I remember how I went to a Store to get Hairdye, I tried to dye my Hair brown. So yes, Brown was the chosen color and I did everything as directed on the Package. But something went wrong, because I ended up with green Hair, well more Red with a greenish Hint to it! NICE !! As smart Move could have been to join the Gothic and Punk Societies with such a Mane... but no, I went to School and tried to ignore all dumb remarks.

Until one fine Evening, it must have been a Weekend, when my Mother brought me to the Movie Theater.
The Movie ? Pretty Woman !! I was so amazed when I saw the Wig Julia Roberts wore in the Beginning of the Movie laying on the Ground/Pillow... thinking, she must have beautiful brown or even black Hair now... BUT NO,  " they're RED. " she replied to Richard Gere. RED,woah ... I was psyched !! Okay, as we all know today this Movie became a BOXOFFICE HIT and catapulted Julia Roberts instantly to the Top of Superstardom.
Not only that, it seemed to have changed Fashion aswell, because all of a sudden I saw Women who dyed their Hair red, all Shades of it... the redder the better it seemed.

Suddenly, thanks to a 'Pretty Woman', RED was beautiful,
and I had it naturally !  :)

The TAO of the Redhead ...by Holly Nell

 " While working from home, I have plenty of time to catch up on my news. And redheads have been making headlines. Unfortunately, it's not for doing anything other than being redheads.

A Facebook group was created called "Kick a Ginger" Day inspired by a 2005 "South Park" episode in which Cartman calls redheads "evil" and "soulless"and said they suffer from a disease called gingervitis. OK, it's kinda funny. That is until last week when things got serious and kids got hurt.

Several kids at A. E. Wright, a middle school in Calabasas, CA, took the joke too far when they started beating and harassing red headed students. Three of those students face criminal charges and the fourteen year old Vancouver boy who started the Facebook group is also being being investigated and could face charges as well. It made me feel slightly less depressed to read that a group of friends rallied around one of the redheads providing protection as she went from class to class. At least all hope isn't lost for our kind. But the predictions seem so dire. First, we're headed for extinction, then it's proven that we're not just big babies about needles or anesthesia, but are actually genetically inclined to feel more pain (told ya so Mom!) And now this!

Sad to say I know all too well the plight of the redhead. I didn't just grow up a redhead anywhere, I grew up a redhead in South Texas. An identical twin and a redhead. An identical twin, a redhead with freckles, glasses, braces, a few extra pounds and next to zero pigmentation. The only thing that saved me from complete and total social exile was was my enthusiasm for doing other kids homework and my aptitude at the trombone. Yes, I also played the trombone.

Adolescence is cruel for almost any one but add in hair the color of carrots and it was a whole steaming pile of difficult. I heard nicknames like Strawberry Shortcake and Rainbow Brite (she had blond hair but c'mon kids can make almost anything seem insulting). When people compared us to someone famous, it was usually Chelsea Clinton (cue sounds of thirteen year old sobbing).

It wasn't even about the hair color, it was about being different. The mob mentality preyed upon on the weak and redheads seem to land firmly in that category. I so desperately wanted to look like the beautiful blondes on Dallas or Cindy Crawford with her luxurious brunette locks. I didn't want to be different. I wanted to be just like everyone else. And then I got older. I lost the weight and grew my hair out. I left the confines of my small Texas town and took trips to San Francisco, New York, and Mexico. And something strange began to happen. Everywhere we went, we were noticed. Not just noticed but admired. We were the red-headed twins. Not a bad thing, something people were intrigued and excited by. People stopped to talk to us. Old ladies touched our hair and told us we were good luck. Men old enough to be our father proposed marriage. It was strangely flattering, all of it, but it wasn't enough to convince me that being a redhead was anything other than a curse.

And, sure enough, one day I made a big decision to leave my redheaded roots behind me. I'd gone to a salon and when the overly enthusiastic stylist convinced me that I desperately needed highlights... $300 highlights (he left that part out). I said yes without any hesititation. When he was finished, I was almost blonde. Barely a trace of my redheaded self remained. I looked in the mirror and I saw a stranger. I hated it and so did most of the people who knew me. It took a few months to grow out and I went back to my natural color (or as close to it as possible). I wasn't upset or ashamed anymore. I'm a redhead dammit, and proud of it.

Of course, I couldn't tell my eight-year old, or twelve-year old or sixteen year old self that but I've figured it out now. Being a redhead gave me the ability to embrace my differences. It allowed me to be okay with not being part of the crowd. It may have even set me on the path of following my dreams, no matter how crazy or farfetched they seemed. Maybe I would've never been inspired to step on stage or pick up a pen and write my own stories. Maybe I'd simply be another peroxide blond in a sea of peroxide blondes. The world has enough Pamela Andersons. I think we need a few more Christina Hendricks!

The South Park spoof was meant as a satire on racism, homophobia and anti-semitism but kids aren't savy enough to understand that. The sad thing is that those gingers who were targeted, who found themselves beaten and humiliated may never embrace their redheaded greatness. They'll L'oreal it away and pretend that's not who they were or they'll soldier on, burdened by their carrot tops, always secretly wishing they were anything but. And that's a shame. Maybe someday someone will start a Hug a Ginger Day or a A Redheads Rule Day. Maybe I will. Because in the end, being a redhead is something I wouldn't trade for anything in the world. " by Holly Nell

 

To be continued @ a later Date !

A low Sunday.

At the end of a few days during the weeks I always look forward to kick back with A. when we can enjoy some good TV-shows together. Afterall, once all the Work is done and when the Kids are in Bed, that is when we get to be " only " a Couple again.

Though our Taste in Television varies, we do enjoy  to watch Shows together. Mondays are usually ' Being Human ' and ' Harry's Law ' to watch... oh yah, and also ' Chuck ' ( A. is a big Fan ). Tuesday we relax on the Sofa to ' No Ordinary Family ' ... Wednesday evenings I get chills watching ' Ghosthunters ' by myself, when on Thursday we switch to ' Fairly legal ' and/or ' Royal Pains ' ( whenever it shows ).

Oh yeah, and whatever happened to ' Sanctuary ' and ' Haven ' ?? I really liked those Shows and wish they'd be brought back !!

Me personally, I like ' The History Channel ' and everything simular to it... and on Fridays I solo a ' Freaky Friday ' in my Livingroom if I'm in the Mood to.

Today was prettymuch a low day, nothing really big went on. A. and I decided to bring a Bike to the Shop for repairs, had a quick stop at Gamestop for Erin's DSi ( ssshhhh, Easter Bunny ! ). The Kiddos played Lego after returning from Church while A. and I read Books in the Livingroom. We had  Irish Stew for Dinner and then went to see ' Red Riding Hood ' at the Movies. Home again we chose to play a round of  SORRY, then it was OFF TO BED for all 3 Boys !! - Only the 2 dogs and I are still awake. So yah, it was a quiet yet nice Sunday... and after walking the Fluffs I should go and hit the Hay aswell.

Goodnight everyone

and a great Start to another great Week to you ! :)

A little Piece of Ireland.

My Hubby and I are huge Fans of Ireland. There were, and still are, Times when we google Properties for sale at the green Isle. My Husband was born there so his Connection to the Land is far more stronger.
Maybe one Day we'll spend our Retirement Days there, living in a little House in the Countryside, with 2 Horses and Dogs. Well, honestly said, we always thought it would be just perfect for an American/German Family to live at: The Language spoken is , of course, English and the Location would be great aswell. It wouldn't take longer than 6 hours to fly either way, nomatter if to the Eastcoast of the USA or towards european-centered Germany.

But for now I'll dream of that ONE Day to come, maybe, put in an Irish Music CD, go " Green " for St. Patrick's Day and pamper my Family with irish Goodies...

LIKE THIS 1 HERE :

Hot Crab and Cheese on Muffins

4 English Muffins, 1 Tablespoon Butter, 3 green chopped Onions, 1/3 Cup chopped red Bellpepper, 1/2 Pound fresh Crabmeat ( Pikes Place Market ) drained and flaked, 2 Teaspoons of Hot Pepper Sauce, 1 Cup shredded Cheddar Cheese and 1 Cup of shredded Monterey Jack

Preheat Broiler. Place Muffinhalves on greased Baking sheet. Broil 4 inches from Heat 2 minutes or until Muffins are lightly toasted. Place on large microwavable plate.
Melt Butter in a medium Skillet over medium Heat. Add green Onions and Bellpeppers, cook and stir for 3 to 4 Minutes or until tender - Then remove from Heat, stir in Crabmeat, Hot Pepper Sauce and Cheeses. Spoon about 1/3 cup Crab Mixture onto Muffinhalves.
Microwave on High for 1 to 2 Minutes, rotating platter once, or until Crab Mixture is heated through.
- Serve with White Wine -

Die Santa Claus Verschwoerung!

So da war es nun Dezember 2010 und Mama Carter machte sich auf den Weg ins etwas entfernte Einkaufszentrum, auch genannt ' The South Hill Mall ', um die Geschenke fuer Santa und das Christkind  fest zu legen. Sie schnappte ihre beiden Jungen und eilte mit ihnen in der Silberkutsche - heute Hyundai SantaFe genannt - davon.
Nach einigem Hin und Her im grossen Gebaeude trafen sie auf eine Ansammlung von Menschen. Frauen und vor allem Kinder in ihren feinsten weihnachtlichen Gewaendern erwarteten gespannt das Erscheinen des Einen... Santa Claus ! Bald waren Mama Carter's Boys ebenfalls in der Reihe, und ehe sie sich versah schon auf des Roten Mannes Knien. 4 Elfen tanzten wie in Euphorie um ihm herum und schossen unaufhoerlich mit Blitzgeraeten - heute Foto Kameras genannt -  auf ihn und ihre Kinder ein.
Sie stand da und konnte es nichtmehr aufhalten... . Was sollte das ? 9 Bilder entstanden aus dieser Sitzung!
Jedoch was einer der Elfen zu Mama Carter sagte liess sie nichtmehr los, es klammert sich noch heute, einen ganzen Monat spaeter, an ihre Erinnerungen.
Als ihre unschuldigen Buben auf dem Schoss des weiss-baertigen und im roten Samt gekleideten Mannes sassen kam ploetzlich einer der Leitelfen - ' the Head Elf ' - auf sie zu, dieser Wichtel in Strumpfhosen sprach mit lustiger Stimme dass ihr Aeltester dem Weihnachtsmanne nicht traue, ihn am Bart zog und wagte dessen Echtheit in Frage zu stellen.
Daraufhin hat Santa Claus erwiedert dass er nur dem Aelteren ein ganz besonderes Geschenk machen wird, das dieser schwankte, drohte seinen Glauben in die Magie Weihnachtens zu verlieren !
Sollte das Heranwachsen ihrer Jungs Mama Carter Kopfschmerzen machen ? Natuerlich war dieses Gespraech nur unter 4 Augen, Mama Carter und dem Elf , und nicht fuer einen der Jungs.

Eine Woche vor Heiligabend rannte Mama nun durch die Strassen Lacey's und Lakewood's um nach diesem einen besonderen Geschenk zu suchen. Sie suchte nach etwas beteutungsvollem, nach etwas das den Glauben an kindliche Magie wieder erwecken wuerde. Sie gruebelte und gruebelte, ... da ploetzlich  hatte sie die einleuchtende Idee : Eine kleine Glocke ! Eine Glocke die sie in einem der vielen Geschenkelaeden fand, mit geschnitztem Halter in Form eines Weihnachtsmannes, handbemalt und einem goldenem Glockenrock, einfach perfekt.